Wednesday, 9 November 2011

In transit

Four bare walls
Cold concrete floors
Naked ceilings, echoing voices
Empty rooms, a screaming absence
A blank canvas, creative silence

Bolts and bulbs, screws and sockets
Measuring tape lives in your pockets
Fitting, adjusting
Constant readjusting
A smell of new starts to brew

Moving boxes and sealing tape
Bubble wrap, all things packed
Some old sold, some old is gold
Some old best forgotten
Some old invite new beginnings

Energy drives across these spaces
New shelves support old books and familiar faces
Opening drawers and slamming doors
Human soul penetrates the floors

A new postcode
Goodbye to an old road
Some teething problems
And welcomed gains
Some latched freedom
Unlocked by new keys

A whistling kettle
Sit down and settle
Glowing candles
Flat screen panels
Savoury yummies and sweet delights
Ready to taste, ready to bite

Bare walls bear warmth
Naked ceilings radiate light
Boxed goods sheltered safe
Comfy couches caress the floors
Warm hands open doors
Once a house ...
Now a home 

Friday, 4 November 2011

Allow me

An old piece written in September 2000

I wonder what you're thinking
I wonder what you feel
I want to know what you believe in
I need to know what is real

You fear to share your secrets
You hide your beliefs
I can sometimes see your visions
But fail to confront your fears

I want to be led through your spirit
Through your soul
Through your heaven and your hell
Come on lets cast the spell

Will you teach me how to love you?
Will you teach me how to be?
Can I hold you near me?
And let you lean on me?

Will I ever swim on your ocean?
Will I ever lie in your stream?
Will you let me drain in your fountain?
And care to share your dream

Can I endure your pain?
Can I help to ease your grief?
Can I soothe the heartache?
Allow me to restore your faith

Goofy things that make me smile


  1. Finding money I didn't know I had
  2. Pizza crusts which everyone else leaves on the plate, I relish
  3. An unexpected kiss from your child whilst you are getting them dressed
  4. Getting a package from the post office!
  5. Humming to a song you hear on the radio and then downloading it to hear it again and again
  6. When someone does a “like” on my blog
  7. A glass of wine on a Wednesday evening with my girls
  8. When the weighing scale shows the magic number
  9. Finding something so funny that you laugh out loud
  10. Taking off my wedding ring, just to read the engraving inside
  11. Helping a random stranger
  12. Getting a compliment on your worst day
  13. Finding a parking spot in the city centre and discovering you don't have to pay for it
  14. Saying “I Love You” just because …
  15. When the sun comes out after the rain
  16. When my son tells me “I want to be like you Mama, you know everything!”
  17. The smell of fresh baked bread
  18. Watching an episode of Friends you had never seen before … "Gold dust"
  19. Ice cream on a cold day
  20. Falling asleep on the sofa 

Friday, 28 October 2011

Twisted Circle

We grew up apart without growing apart
Distance between us brought us closer
Today only a few miles away
And drifting apart

Crumbling debris has been piling up
Once a smooth road
Now tarnished by gravel and dirt
How long has it been?
I cannot tell
In denial was I then
Now have just given up

Tear stains are slowly smudging the present
The luminous past remains the past
Time is going so fast
The future may aswell be a fractured cast

In the twilight I still see you
I see a tall figure, I see a moving silhouette
I see a shadow
I see a faint figure
Then... blur

You talk to me
You hug me
You even say "help me"
How can I help you?
Come out of my dream
Please come out

With you I've laughed till I've cried
With you I've stayed awake till I've crashed out
With you I've seen the moonlight and watch the sun rise
With you my dear, it's always been clear

My love for you so strong, makes me stay
Other days anger takes over and I want to walk away
You play games with my mind
Answers I simply cannot find

Break down the glass wall
Break it girl
I'll help you gather the pieces
I'll bleed with you and then heal too
Scab to scar
I'm willing to go that far

I continue to embrace you
Circle gets bigger
My arms are aching
Circle gets bigger
I'm letting go
Can't no more
Circle gets bigger
Are you still going to be there?

Tuesday, 27 September 2011

I understand... do you really?

"The greatest mistake we often make in our relations, we listen half, understand quarter, think zero and react double." 

Do you ever find yourself in a situation where you just want to know why that person did what they did? We encounter everyday situations where our interaction with people is fundamental towards a harmonious and peaceful life. The people that often cause us maximum damage are sadly those closest to us. This is not because they intend to be mean to you or vice versa, it's simply because we often take their behaviour for granted and when suddenly these individuals say or don't say something we  initially feel shock, followed by anger and ultimately pain. 

A common solution to this problem is to talk! Agreed it is good to talk, but the key to successful talking is to do it at the right time. If one reacts immediately to a situation, often they will play the victim and emote negative energies and project a violent verbal or physical approach towards the problem. This automatically ecncourages the receiving end to either block off and build a wall of defense or simply judge you for your words and not understand why you have reacted in this way. So, really the problem has not been solved, but only gotten worse. 

Why do we do this? Well I like to think there is no right answer to this question, but there are two angles from which we can help ourselves to understand this a little better. One is the scientific / logical approach and second the spiritual approach.

We all loosely fall into four different categories as people. These are preferences which your personality opts for by default in a given situation. The first preference is a choice between an extroversian or an introversian. There is no "right" category as each one represents a set of characteristics which complement the overall personality of an idividual. If you are an "E" type, you generally talk to other people and listen to what someone is saying. If you are an "I" type, you prefer to think about what to say or do and can be a great listener for an "E" type. You basically define the direction of your daily actions either internally or externally. 
Seondly, there is sensing and intuition. These are methods by which we collect our information. E.g. Do you follow a plan step by step (sensing) or do you come up with new ways to carry out things (intuitive). We all need data to work with, but the sensing method grasps data in a literal and more concrete manner, whereas the intuitive method assimilates more abstract possibilities from data already gathered. Again, we all use both methods in our lives, but in differing degrees of priority and comfort. 

Thirdly, there is the criteria of thinking and feeling. When we are thinking, we can research into a product and base our purchasing decision on the product which best meets our needs. If we are feeling, we may just decide to buy a product because we like it. A thinker will always do the "right thing" even if they may not want to. A person in feeling mode will probably not tell somebody something, with the fear of upsetting them. Most decisions we make involve both feeling and thinking , but sometimes the harder decisions are those where one mode collides with another. In this event, the more dominant preference will take over and thus distinguishes one individual from another.

The last set of preferences are judging and perceiving. These latter ones determine our response to the external world and how we live our routine life. Those that like to be neat, orderly and finish off a task before starting another are of the judging kind. Perceivers like to be spontaneous and postpone things to see what other options are available. A challenge often arises when humans with a strong judging precedence have to deal with with those that have strong perceiving preferences. E.g. a lastminute holiday can appeal to some, but not to others. In couples it has been seen that a mixture of both these characteristics can be quite complementary, provided each one has accepted each others differences!

 So after understanding the different preferences which give shape and enrich the personality of an individual, we can see that it can appear quite complex and intricate. In actual fact, it's not such a rigid framework where a person can be black or white. We all possess these characteristics within us, but in varying degrees. The truth is, in times of stress and pressure, the more dominating preference prevails and thus we react accordingly in a situation. Pressure can be different for each person too. E.g. being on stage in front of hundreds of people can result stressful for many, but quite comfortable and mundane for others. 

Therefore, the correct procedure should be to eliminate stress and pressure from this mathematical equation, to enable all our preferences to work efficiently and thus help us to make an informed decision. As simple as this may sound, it is the toughest task for most human beings to work objectively under pressure. 

From a spiritual point of view, the message is quite simple too. One needs to have control over their mind to perform at optimum levels. This control is achieved by disciplining the mind and detaching your thoughts from the outside world, otherwise known as meditation. Meditation is a powerful exercise which takes years of practice and even then one is not always able to focus entirely well.

The ultimate goal however is to be able to react objectively and with patience to any given situation. In both instances, scientific or spiritual, the common factor is the right moment to voice your thoughts.. You can deliver the same message and eliminate a tone of anger, a feeling of judgement and successfully make the other person listen and not just hear what you are saying. 

In life it is important to never take any decisions when you are in an angered state of mind, you should never make promises when elated or happy and above all don't fall in love when you have not learnt to love yourself first! What is synonymous of these examples is the state of the mind, which is not balanced. Being too upset or too happy can derail our analysis and decision, and later on it may be too late to fix it!

 Put yourself in the shoes of another person, breathe their air and absorb their traumas by utilising your dormant preferences. After you have prepared your mind, only then is it the right moment to take action.

Friday, 9 September 2011

Eyes wide shut

Silence sits still on the window sill
I'm waiting, contemplating
Noise creeps through and seduces the air
I'm listening, absorbing
Blink black, blink light
Hide and seek I play with the night.

Deep breaths and gentle snores orchestrate a soothing ballad
Air conditioning hisses to add some bass
I'm staring, wondering

Blinking digitals and charging gadgets
Perform flashing pirouettes, adding colour to the darkness
Red shimmers bounce off my night stand, 0.44 reads the Casio display
My lids feel heavy and parched are my lips
I want to feel better, I really do
A sip of water, some turning around
Back to ground zero

Facing up or on my side
Stomach down
Arms hanging out
Layers off, come on again
Come on now
It's just not fair!

Silence sits still on the window sill
Noise creeps in and numbs the air
Drousy strokes brush my face
Blink black, blink black
I no longer hide or seek
I'm sleeping, finally sleeping!

Thursday, 18 August 2011

Uninvited guests

We are all walking on the same paths in the present, often seeking to hold on to the trails of the past which have treaded the same route. We struggle to accept the changes that the present brings, as the essence of the past still infuses through. When someone leaves us, their soul lingers on and projects their once existence through the presence of other people, physical places and material objects which carry the fading fragrances of that person.

How long does this last? Is a soul with us forever or do we replace their existence with time? Death is often embraced with resistance as we fear the pain it brings us in its immediate consequence. However, the longer times passes, we learn to accept and learn to live on. This learning is what's hard. Do we perhaps need a school where one is taught how to handle death? Sounds ridiculous doesn't it? 

Let's flip the coin and talk about love then. Another uninvited guest that steps into our life and we are not often ready for it. How is it then that we welcome love with open arms and inhale the emotions it brings with it? It's pleasurable, tickles you and you like it. Is it always good for you though, does the love you feel, feel back? If you are not loved back, you actually feel dead, just not buried. If the love you feel is single handed, well you are alone. This solitude can be compared to the feeling of death as one dies alone! If true lovers are united, they give birth to a new body and death removes the existing body. So ultimately love and death produce similar emotions, yet the world rejoices love and mourns death. Love and death are both eternal but death is definite with no expectations. Love inspires expectations, which if not met leads to a dark beauty you only day dream about.  

The common factor between both guests is the soul. You miss the physical being after death but the soul still remains and this soul is what you actually love. Being in love requires more than one soul and if one of those souls is alive but absent, well the agony this produces can be paralleled to the end of life.

Forgive me my romantic lovers, I intend no distress. I have loved and not been loved back! I have loved and been loved back! I have mourned death and hurt more when not loved back. All the guests have dwelled in me and I have simply improvised as best as I can...


Sunday, 26 June 2011

Mr. Mysterious


The finals are approaching closely and the library has become my new ghetto. Sipping filtered coffee on my breaks is the highlight of my afternoons, in between study sessions which I carry out with my study buddy and soul sister Mary. Mary motivates me to get the grades. Neither of us are really that academically brilliant, but ambitious and hardworking you cannot deny us.

Amidst the highlighters, notepads and carefully classified revision notes my eyes are distracted by a new presence loitering in the aisles. He is not making noise, but gestures so loud that one cannot help but notice the show he has on display. One earphone in and the other dangling on his neatly tucked in shirt. He irons his clothes, this I cannot help but observe, which motivates me to build the first positive judgment about Mr Mysterious... He's on his phone, which would classify as the coolest most illegal action to perform in a university library. So he's a bad boy, or maybe such assumptions are a little unfair.

"Stop wasting your time chica, I’m testing you in half an hour!" says Mary in a whisper. She's right, I need to focus on what's important. A mild thought lingers far behind though, who is he and how is it that I had not seen him before? Our test sessions can best be described as a live talk show, where Mary adopts the role of Oprah, Ricky and pretty much anyone you want her to be, not to mention our accent changes which add that spice to the conversation. We find this study system adds volume and appeal to the lame and mind numbingly boring management terms, which later play positively on our memory during an exam, often resulting in a chuckle or two for both Mary and myself.

So engrossed have we become in our reality show that neither one has noticed a new member has joined us on the large mahogany table. His books are haphazardly placed, along with a bottle of water and a mini disc player. He's quietly conversing with one of the architects in my year, which gives me a clue that if he is an architect, then Alison must know him. I cannot help but discreetly stare at him. How the hell does one stare discreetly? Get a grip and stop making it obvious I tell myself.

I need caffeine, come on let's go downstairs! Making our way through the long passageway, my eyes are glued to the aisles, hoping to get a glimpse of him. No luck! We join the queue to get our confectionary and beverages, discussing our next topic of revision for the following hour. "What's your plan for the weekend then?" A little shopping and perhaps the later cinema session on Saturday night. I do want to get some revision done, before I can take a break. I'm just about finishing my sentence, but my ears are drawn to a voice. "Fruit pastilles and bottle of water please." A deep American voice is what gives vocal identity to Mr Mysterious. I am tickling inside and he has not even spoken directly to me. Suddenly filtered coffee goes from being a highlight to a stale slice of bread, and hearing an American English accent seems to cross all erotic boundaries.

I cannot explain how he looks. This is irrelevant as his actions, voice and general presence set a bigger impression on me. Everything else suddenly seems cloudy and the rest of the canteen is just radio silence, as I absorb this figure and his aura.  

"Are we going back up, or do you need to check your email?" Mary and I have code too. Checking your email means hanging around this level a little longer, for any important appointments one may have in the library. I find myself being sucked into a crush that I can really only admire from a distance, and for all I knew Mr. Mysterious probably had a gorgeous, tall, slim and model like girlfriend.

I log in only to find a few boring forwards, which I actually take my sweet time reading only to hope that Mr. Mysterious will make an entry and decide to check his email at the computer which is free right next to mine. This is of course another one of my Sydney Sheldon fantasies which never seem to come true. I am about to log out and I see an email from Alison. She must be wanting to check on the weekend plan I'm sure. She always calls or texts though.


I open it and cannot believe what I am reading. "He's called me from the library twice, to ask if you are seeing someone and whether or not he can ask you out. What the hell are you wearing and why have you not paid any attention to him, he is sitting at your table for crying out loud! Call me."

I log out of my email discreetly and head back up to my table with the biggest and most discreet grin on my face. Just another study session.

Saturday, 25 June 2011

39 weeks and 5 days




Fed up is frankly what I was at this point! The past few weeks had felt like climbing a really steep mountain, carrying a suitcase of around 10 kilos. I no longer even felt remotely beautiful looking at myself in the mirror. Was my face changing? I understood how my body had changed, well that was an understatement actually... it had over gone a metamorphosis in the last 5 months or so. Bloody hormones! Who invented you and who gave you the right to play on my mood, my body and now even my face? Blotchy, bloated, breasts my back could no longer carry and just generally a horrible bitch is what I had turned into.

Just another evening, getting ready for bed. Now you could say that getting ready for bed was more like getting ready for my daily battle of wanting to sleep without having an oversized water melon obstructing my sleep positions. Why did my mother not teach me how to sleep facing up? Now really it was all her fault, as blaming someone always makes me feel better. Not to mention the frequent trips to the loo. My bladder had been misbehaving for about 4 months, how can I blame the poor thing, with all the pressure it received... well the only outlet of her stress was whining to me about it. The most fierce soldier in my nocturnal battle was but of course the kick boxing queen. A daytime dormant, who partied at night.

"Good night sweetheart" he said giving me a kiss on the lips. Except we both knew it would be another bad night for me! Ice cream, chocolate, biscuits are what came to my mind. How can one possibly feel hungry ALL the time for Christ sake? I was not like this the first time. Well, I had crossed the point of caring anymore. One more kilo up or down, who cares? I manoeuvred myself out of bed and waddled down to the kitchen. Opening the freezer was one of those treats I gave myself these days, the cold air made me feel better and forget the inhumane heat I was having to deal with in this lovely month of July.

White Magnum cried out to me, take me please take me now. The emotional blackmail was far too potent to refuse and my maternal instinct could not bear to see it sitting there alone. 2 Magnums later I felt it was a good time to head back to bed. Chocolate really does release some mad endorphins in women, and in my case I am pretty sure mixed with the levels of hCG Human Chorionic Gonadrotopin (otherwise known as the pregnancy hormone) created a lethal mix of happiness, followed by an absolute melancholic state of mind.

05.13 am. My stomach starts to harden up. Hello to lady of the night! You have decided to make a late entry today. Except the hardening followed by a cramp in my lower pelvis, which then led to a sharp pain that I can only best describe as 100 women’s stilettos stepping all over my abdomen. Sounds fun doesn't it? Something told me this was finally the end of a saga and the start of new beginnings. I’m so glad I had been to the beauty salon that afternoon! Fat but glamorous was the key!

Monday, 20 June 2011

Pizza

Inspired by some serious pizza lovers... this is for you. 

A slice to start with
Becomes a vice as you bite into it
A pleasure so simple
Yet plunges deep on your pallet

A hearty brew of olive oil tomato sauce paints the canvas
Slithers of bubbling cheese make textured waves on the crusty base
Neatly placed slices of pepperoni sweat their oil
Sprinkles of oregano infuse into the potpourri of ingredients, alluring you into your first bite

It's piping hot but you want to teeth into it
As you near it towards your mouth
An aroma wraps you silly, sending a delirious thrill through your veins
Ravenous, famished is how you suddenly feel
Eat your heart out
Do it quick

A crunchy crisp sensation envelops your taste buds
coupled with some smooth mozarella and spicy chorizo mélange
Uff, can I be hitting a series of emotions in ascending order of forcefulness?

Each bite translates to more pleasure
A little chilled white washes down the lingering flavours
Inviting more to come
Soak into another bite

Deep pan or paper thin
Diavola or Margarita
A meat feast with extra this and extra that
Bell peppers with garden greens
Shredded zucchini and caramel onions
Choose your topping, anything works

Garlic, paprika, fresh basil too
A dash of Tabasco, hot and fiery works for me too

I heart my pizza
I love my pizza
A pleasure so simple
Plunges so deep

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

Short and sweet

It is often the silence of a person that gives us our most important answers in life. Those that speak little or express less are those that feel the most. This is because they control, they resist, they digest and above all they listen. If one does not speak, it does not mean that they are deaf.

"Yes, no, sure, wow, ok, really, how come, definitely".... such classic clicheéd replies from a Man of few words. Have you ever stopped to think how powerful these replies are? They are short but affirmative! We need to realise that less is more and more of the same just causes confusion. 

When you are alone and not talking to anyone, you partake in what one calls a thinking process. This moment of thinking is often the time when you find a solution to many questions that have been on your mind. So effectively you do not speak and allow your full focuss on the mind. The brain is overcharged with processing information and if to add to that you start to speak too, how is one supposed to concentrate on thinking and speaking at the same time and ultimately produce sound solutions?

I conclude from all this that it is important to spend time alone and simply think, it is also important to not talk once in a while and let the mind talk instead and above all it is crucial to sometimes regard a short answer as more important than a long winded one which may often confuse you and in turn lead you to misinterpret the other person.

Words that gripped me

This belongs not to me, however I felt captivated by this brief, yet powerful paragraph.
Hidden inside the veil unbroken
Lies my soul still unspoken
Countless words still unsaid
Many thoughts still not expressed
While walking on the road of life
......I wait for my soul to be discovered
Author- Unknown

Tuesday, 12 April 2011

Hush-Hush

Are we addicted to each other?
Or simply devoted?
Perhaps both, sometimes a little too sugar coated

Yesterday, today, tomorrow
A day without, produces sorrow
Remedy I can give it
A shot of you is what cures it

I am scared
Scared this is not right
Control yourself
Balance it out
Too much in excess
Withdrawal symptoms
Crying shivers, screams for detox

You do it again
Two days of lent
A little sacrifice
I'm learning to walk
You pull me back in your arms
Embrace me, drug me numb

But I like this too
Why should I detach
"A life half lived is not worth living"
You free me and cage me
You love me and I hate myself
You tease me, I please you
Go away, no don't
Stay awhile
Five more minutes, then turn the lights out

Eyes are closing
But you are still there
Undress me with your eyes
Stop it, no don't
Sedate me with your poison
Cripple me with your charm


Wake me up, no don't
Let the tickle linger on

A lie is what this is
Or truth simply holding back
I want you, do you?
One night
One fight
Just hold me tight
I'm in control, no I'm not
I'll get over it
One day, some day
I know I will

When did this happen?
Overnight, overtime, over who cares?
It's taken over me, over you too
Please leave me, no don't
No one knows, no one has to
Hush-Hush ...

Girl

I like a girl, she's so beautiful
I like her so much
I wish I could just reach out
and touch
but we know that would be a bit too much

I do though
I touch her shadow when she walks
in front of me
If only she could see
see how i feel about her

I do know she sees me
as the guy who she can talk to
talk about what she can't tell him
She sees him when she talks to me
I see her even when she doesn't see me

Interesting what she tells me
"But why can't he feel that way about me?"
 I wish I was him

I like a girl
the same girl who leans on me
to cry when she is sad
I hug her truly
Madly deeply
She hugs me too
"But why does he not talk to me?"
Can't you see I want to listen to you?

I like a girl
Her favourite colour is pink
Cheeks stained pink from all the crying
"But why does he not say anything about my new dress?"
I chose the dress with you
Can't you wear it only once ... for me

I like a girl
She makes me laugh with her silly stories
"But why does he laugh like that when he sees me, does he find me funny?"
Can't you see that I can laugh with you
He just laughs at you

Stay with me girl
Stay now
Stay forever
I will notice you
I will feel "that way" about you
Talk to you and laugh with you
"But do you think I should tell him, would you do the same?"
Would I?

Friday, 18 February 2011

Relationships - Biggest Wealth

In our lives, we encounter various types of relationships with all kinds of people. You are born mostly with the fortune of having both sets of parents, sometimes grandparents too and later on in life this surplus of relationships increases with siblings, extended family, friends and one day you may even find a life partner. In all of this there is one key component which most of us often take for granted with these relationships. - Expectations

With some of these relationships you expect more and with others you expect less. However, when these expectations are not met, you find yourself in the situation of disappointment. We bitch, we moan and we often dig the problem so deep that the hole becomes larger than life. You see, expectations are in eye of the beholder. Do you see the problem? Genetically humans are not engineered to predict or foresee what the other person wants from them. Few of us are lucky and rely on the probability theory of intuition. This myth sometimes works for some people and I call that a lucky day gambling with emotions. Men in most cases are hideously incapable of guessing what women’s expectations are. However, they are logical and far more direct when it comes to understanding the point if this is clearly communicated to them. Women have an emotional Everest in their cranium which makes them dysfunctional towards verbally communicating their needs towards man or woman and often they hear or see what they want to believe in. So the bottom line here is a void of communication. This can occur between partners, parents, siblings and even between friends. 

We are victims of our own actions! If you do not communicate your needs with your relationships, this creates a misunderstanding and more often than usual you start to form negative opinions about a person and ultimately the bomb blasts and you say things which really you could have avoided and were fiercely unnecessary. When we have negative thoughts in our minds, we are creating karma. When we emote such thoughts towards another person you are also creating karma. When we take action on those thoughts and bitch about  a person to their face or behind their back you are also creating karma. Ultimately there is no good that comes from having bitter sour feelings towards anyone in life! 

So really where does the answer lie? Your needs have to be expressed and only then will this vicious circle of expectations end. You may discuss what you need and will often find that these needs are far more realistic than the preposterous expectations you had festering in your head.

You open up a channel of communication with the other person and thus avoid misunderstanding their motives, which in turn lead towards a grey free area of possible doubts and ultimately prevent karma from taking place. 

I stress the notion of karma because I have observed in life when we have happy thoughts for other people, even those that may have caused us pain or discomfort, this keeps us in tune with the values which we have been brought up with, makes us happier individuals and makes us more compassionate towards others. I am not saying that we must embrace these bad people in our lives, but we must create empathy towards all situations and try to put yourself in the shoes of the other person. Why did they do that? Would I have possibly done the same thing? If you are pro active towards a consequence, this prepares you for a situation in the future. 

In 2010 I made some promises to myself and decided to filter and permeate my treasure chest of relationships. I realised that not all those in this chest were precious stones which enriched me in the way which I had hoped they would. It was a detoxifying cleansing ritual which was hard and painful. However the benefits of this filtering process not only de-burdened me but also allowed me to welcome new relationships into my life. In all of this I did remember one thing and that was to not create bad feelings towards these losses, rather to set them free and allow them to seek a treasure chest elsewhere. Perhaps they were a misfit in my life and I was no one to judge them for their actions. 

A year later I have lived some experiences which have left me pleasantly surprised and also reminded me of how karma really does work and my faith in it is further strengthened! I have also consciously been exercising my communication skills with my relationships and have discovered that it eliminates doubts, makes me see the truth and not the distorted truth that my wild imagination sometimes allures me into. These small changes in my life have benefited me in huge ways that translate to simple love. I love my family, I love my friends and I love the simple pleasures in life which we often disregard behind all the paraphernalia that adorns our complicated lives. 

Communicate your needs and think good for everyone. I dedicate this to my children, who inspired me to write this piece. They are budding examples of individuals who tell me what they want and only see positive things in all the people that surround them. In my eyes children are the happiest humans!